Hello neighbor, welcome to my pineapple.
I hope by now you have picked up on the Spongebob references, or this could have been awkward for the both of us. Alas, this blog is not a Spongebob fanfic, nor does it have anything to do with life under the sea. It does however have to do with life after graduation. College, for myself, but I think this would apply to really any young person just trying to figure their life out. Incase you skipped my bio, my name is Cami. I am a 22 year old from PA, currently trying to get my life together in Baltimore while I complete my grad program at Johns Hopkins. Did that name impress you? Yeah, me too. Not sure how I got here but I promise I am equally surprised. Let’s just roll with it, shall we?
So what’s my end game here?
Honestly, I really don’t have one. I’m just a girl who is supposed to be an adult but doesn’t feel like one yet. Over the course of my time in college, I had a lot of people tell me how they admired me because it appeared that I had my life completely together. If you peep my instagram (@cam_ayy) I would agree with you. As far as my insta is concerned, I am well traveled, have a cute boyfriend, eat good food and have fun friends. According to my snapchat, I go out a lot, am ALWAYS doing something, and have a terrible sing-a-long voice. My facebook page would tell you that I am an academically motivated student, someone who cares passionately about social justice, and enjoys a good dog video. A lot of people have told me that they stalk my social media and that I look like I’m having “the time of my life” and that it has motivated them in some way or another to pursue something in their own lives. While that actually makes me very surprised, I feel the need to set the record straight.
I have NO idea what I’m doing.
Deciding to begin my undergraduate career at a University across the country from my family and friends, where I knew no one, and had chosen off my neighbors ex’s instagram page (she looked like she was having fun!?) , was a power move for sure. And I have to say I got pretty darn lucky considering how bad that could have went. I told myself I would just do what made me happy until I wasn’t happy anymore. I tested this theory when I decided to join a Sorority, and thankfully that gave me the support system I needed to make my freshman year bearable and the next 3 years AWESOME. Most of my freshman year I considered transferring to a school closer, got my first “C” EVER (Who knew you actually had to go to class?) and changed my major 3 times. I had my fair share of roomie drama, cried once a week on average probably and gained the freshman 15 just like everyone else.
*Voice over voice: Does this sound like you or someone you may know?
Well, probably! These are all very normal things to happen not only in your first year of undergrad, but really during any large period of transition. Honestly, I could associate any of those feelings with how I’m feeling right now. Those feelings of being in an unfamiliar setting, away from your usual support system, unsure about what the future holds would also describe what if feels like to begin grad school in a new city, and to make the next step towards my future career. Any recent graduate can relate. The pressure from society (and yourself) to get a job as soon as possible and have a plan and actually know what you’re doing can be hard to manage. Add to that the fact that most entry level jobs these days require YEARS of experience that you probably don’t have because you JUST graduated, all while managing new finances and your mounds of crippling debt and student loans lurking in the backround, it can be a lot.
So how can I help?
Well, there’s a lot of power in the human condition. We as humans are always seeking knowledge in one way or another, and I think there is true power in sharing our stories loud and truthfully. I don’t have much to offer in terms of age, wisdom, tips or tricks. I don’t own a step-by-step guide to how to figure this stuff, but my hope is that maybe you can learn from some of my mistakes, or just know that you’re not alone in the struggles. Transparency is essential to healthy and truthful relationships on all levels, so if my honesty can help someone else feel acceptance, then sign me up!
Well, enough about me.
This blog is broken up to a few different pages. These sites can all be found in the drop down menu at the top of the page. Incase you are curious as to what they hold, let me explain.
Is It Weird If?
Here I’ll ask the most profound questions of our time, “Hey, is it weird if…”. I plan on covering all controversial topics that I encounter. These can be honestly be about anything. Feel free to submit your own curiosities on the contact pages!
This is where I’ll post specifically about my life struggles, and any tips, tricks, or hints I accidentally accumulate along the way. Basically, this is where I suffer so you don’t have to!
The most low-key section of my blog. I’ll post anything that is bringing positivity to my life at the moment. Music discoveries, enlightening books, thought provoking podcasts, fav flicks, all that jazz. Check this page if you want to send some good vibes your way!
Welp, looks like that’s it for me… Are Ya Ready Kids?!